Image by Christine Renney
I am attempting to forge a route that takes in all of my haunts, all the places where I have taken shelter after dark. The doorways where I have pushed back and stretched out and where I have slept. But there are too many and as I move between them, making my way back and forth, I feel disoriented and this sudden compulsion is now pulling me from the Centre or at least from the part of the City I have accepted as the Centre, a place where I have loitered and lingered. But my reluctance to leave seems to have deserted me and I am fleeing, but to where?
I am pushing against the City and it is dense and difficult to navigate. I look because I must but I can’t focus and I can’t see my way through. The idea of a Centre here, that it could exist, is inconceivable and yet I have conceived of it and somehow I have found my way. But how?
It must have been slow, my descent. So gradual that the progress I have made is all but impossible to detect.
Intriguing how your character perceives the ‘centre’ as being the centre of the city and therefore of ‘civilisation’ – and, perhaps as a result, his detachment from it.
I’m reading ‘Hunger’ by Knut Hamsun at the moment. I don’t know if you’ve read it, but, if not, I’m sure you’d find it interesting.
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Thank you Chris. Yes I have read ‘Hunger’ it’s one of my favourites in fact!
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The darkness in this post is nearly sublime.
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Not unlike Rimbaud’s prose pieces.
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Thank you Dave. That’s quite a compliment!
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Christine and I have a new post on Hijacked Amygdala .
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Magnificent texture.
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Thank you Barry.
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M, you describe the feeling of being trapped in a city as if you have climbed inside the sensation and made it your own, that is incredible and this is a wonderful piece right here, well done my friend
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Thank you Candice.
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