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We talk about the past
I used to like talking about the past
it was a favorite drink warming my hands
when Winter first called
this time what has gone before now feels
sad and heavy like wet wool blanket left to dry
in insufficient heat
it leaches the warmth from my lavender bones
I feel sorrow and weighted down by metal reminder
who was that girl? Who absorbed
grief and laid it on her arms in shapes and symbols
to be read years later by Rune interpreter
did she really? Think she had no worth
so much so the days became years and the pain
soaked so much of her blood she longed to eat
meat
you craved her up and steaming you fed on her
badly wound lassitude
she forgot herself as she pretended
love means forgiving time and time again
she forgot, she was worth something
that girl who didn’t have hands uplifting her from
the clamoring downpour
lost her way in cavorting storm
the spooling moon, a snake wrapped against tattooed branch
this way and that, the even keel of life forgotten
some days it took everything just to stand up
she mislaid the memory, she was not there to be crushed into
tiny pieces of herself and thrown for white breasted sea birds
to swallow whole
love should not force you to your thin knees
it should not destroy the tender parts of you
capable of feeling
fingers playing fiddles with tempura emotion
love is not a white flag of surrender
at times it needs to be a pirate ship
fast on its feet, answerable to nothing but
the truth of vanquished things
torn and shredded in haste
we talk about the past and
I used to like talking about the past
comforting me like a one-night-stand
until I became tired of hearing how I accepted
less and took nothing
raging against the dying light
life is after all
short and painful and full of unexpected turns
do not add to it by self-hate or diminishment
if I could go back in time, this is what I would say
to the girl who got used to having empty pockets
I would take her by the hand and remind her
you may have been broken or forged incompletely
darned with a yarn too coarse for fine needle
you may have been told this was your lot in life, you did not
deserve equality
but just as it seems true, the world will be submerged
when rain comes down pitiless and hard
it is not so
we rise then
we always rise
for one more chance and when it offers itself
hand in your bad habits and leave that moth eaten coat behind
take the tall steps upward
feel the sun on your throat
smile even as you don’t know
what lies around the corner
present and glad
for your very existence
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
TheFeatheredSleep – There is power and joy in the simple, “I am, now.”
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‘take the tall steps upward
feel the sun on your throat
smile even as you don’t know
what lies around the corner
present and glad
for your very existence’…YES!!
Magnificent poetry!
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Thank you so much!!
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Your writing is very powerful!☀️
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Thank you I greatly appreciate you
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Just know that I’m having lots of technical issues with my blog, but I do read your work, and I have been reading it for almost 2 years now! When I close my blog and I go away for awhile, to focus on my living, there are writers like you who just linger in my thoughts and it’s so nice to know that there are people in the world that care, and have hearts of gold! It just makes living so much nicer! Thank you for your contributions in the world of literature! ☀️🙂❤️
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I just wanted to say I hope today is a better day for you…
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Thank you dearest Myth
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You’re very welcome! As weird as it may have sounded when I threw you out an invite, remember the offer. I have spent the last 11 years of my life helping people! If all else fails I have a nice comfortable warm home here and wonderful community that knows me, there’s nothing weird or unusual going on in my life 😀 It’s peaceful and Serene. I just thought to mention kindness, it’s that easy, there’s a place you can go to if you need one. Good luck to you if you do leave WP. You will be missed, as I’ve come to recognize your beautiful words for the last couple of years. I’m sorry to hear about your eyesight I can’t imagine the turmoil this sort of devastation must be bringing you at the moment. It’s very personal what you’re going through! I’m just an email away if you need a friend…☀️🙂❤️
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Thank you dear one. ❤️
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Well this is the saddest day ever in the writing world!! ☹️You are one of the handful of names that are always remembered and looked forward to, to read your beautiful words, and powerful writing! I’m sorry this is happening.
I’m surrounded by amazing people in my community, I live in the mountains and own my own home free and clear, if you ever need a place to live you can come and live here for free! (Don’t you go It Alone!)I hope you change your mind! The world needs prolific writers and all the people who have something to say are so important! Never forget how many lives you have touched by your beautiful words 🌹and all those you may never know about but have just the same! You will be sorely missed in the writing community once again I do hope you change your mind!! Feel free anytime to shoot me an email if you just need to vent! Take good care Bless your heart! Thank you for sharing your beautiful words with everyone! You are a true poetess!! Once again I really do hope you’ll stay! if it helps any look I’m still here and no one reads my poetry at all! 🙂 With much love and admiration…☀️❤️🌷
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And just so you know sweetie I absolutely cannot click the like button on your recent post and I know you understand no negativity for me and there’s nothing to celebrate by clicking the like button but I do understand what you wrote! Bless your heart!
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Beautiful
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Another heartfelt poem with your trademark imagery, e.g. the slow drying wet wool blanket.
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Thank you so much D
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This is SO beautiful! The ending brought tears to my eyes!
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